I don’t like writing. It’s as simple as that. I turn to it when I have things to express that I don’t feel I can trust anyone with. That’s all. I have learned to write only when it’s a desperate act: a deadline, a phrase stuck in my head, a need to expunge bile. That’s why everything I write has that urgency to it.

That’s something I thought of.

I want to write this on facebook, but I fear no one will get it. I should write more on that, actually, having contributed my real world name to some theater criticism on a blog, but…

What I want to write in my facebook status, that I cannot in good conscience leave for people to comment on is this:

I’ve been thinking more about directing because I’m simply not pretty enough to be an actor.

I know what people will say, and I know what people will think. But that is the truth. I have no interest in being pretty (though I want to be fit) and I think I can make good theater if I no longer have to worry about my own appearance in the making of it.